Three weeks ago, God spoke to me. Was it an audible voice? No. But it was such a clear exchange between He and I that it just as well could have been. Here's the back story...


I've been pondering some things for a while now concerning ministry and my calling--more specifically--what God would have me to do for His Kingdom. As most of you know, I surrendered to full-time ministry in February 2005 with my main focus on missions. I say "surrendered" because it was during that time that I first surrendered to God as Lord of my life. I accepted Christ when I was a little girl, but I never fully realized what it truly meant to be a disciple of Jesus until I was 23 years old. At that moment, I knew that being a disciple meant that God was the One who should lead me in every aspect of my life. And from that point forward, I handed over the reins to Him. It's been a beautiful journey ever since that day and He's led me to serve Him in Mexico, New Orleans, Namibia, and now Haiti--including a few other places in between.


But like I said... I've been doing a lot of thinking and seeking these past few months. What is it God wants me to do for His Kingdom? What ministry is pressing? What is needed most? Whenever I hear of desperate regions around the world--especially concerning a spiritual desperation--and I think of the fact that over 1 billion people have never heard the Gospel--I think, I should be going to those places instead of spending all this time in an "overly saturated" missions destination like Haiti. Perhaps a place like Central Africa, where children are being kidnapped and forced into a brutal army. Or maybe to a country where it's illegal to be a Christian and to even speak the name of Christ. Countries where millions are dying daily without Him. As I turn my thoughts back to Haiti, many of these kids I've fallen in love with here probably already know Christ or are at least living in a Christian environment where they can be fed spiritually. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for missionaries in every part of the globe and I know they are needed, and I'm thankful for the opportunity to serve here in Haiti. I'm saying all of this now as part of the introduction that brought me the first sentence of this blog entry. Even as I've fallen so deeply in love with this country and the people I've had the privilege of serving, my bottom line question for myself and of course ultimately for God was this... Do I need to be serving elsewhere?


That night three weeks ago during our debrief time, we were discussing many things. While Roland was talking my mind began to wander again to this issue of how I love Haiti and these kids but am I really supposed to be here? Shouldn't I be ministering to kids with less hope for hearing the gospel? But then, why do I have such a heart for these kids? And I began to list in my mind a few young boys in particular who have gripped my heart. As I was thinking on all these things, wrestling with whether bringing new people to Christ is a more pressing matter than serving in an already spiritually positive environment--God spoke two words: MAKE DISCIPLES. Ding ding ding! I knew instantly that is what I'm supposed to do. That is our ultimate mission through Baptists 4 Haiti and our ultimate mission as Christians. Matthew 28:19 says it best in Christ's final words before His ascension to Heaven, "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations..."


Make disciples. I thought about the disciples of Jesus. His disciples knew Him. They believed in Him. Yes, they had questions and much room to grow, but they were His children, His friends. They had a relationship with Him. They were teachable and their ministries collectively and individually were revolutionary! Make disciples.


These kids God has given me a heart for are important and there is a great and pressing ministry opportunity for me here in Haiti. Perhaps take these children that God has already revealed to me their sweet and caring nature, and grow them into men of faith, radical disciples of and for Christ. So many thoughts continued to flood my mind and I still don't know for sure where all of this is going to lead. But I want to be open and ready to say "YES" if this is God's will. It may be a little scary when I really think about what this could mean. As all of this was coming to my mind Pastor Roland was talking about giving up everything for Christ and I realized this could be my biggest leap yet. Many people already view me as one who lives out her faith radically. Though I do not want to be put on a pedestal, I do hope my life can encourage others to draw closer to Christ. While others may see me as making great sacrifices, to me, these past 7 years of ministry haven't been very difficult. Yes, I've make sacrifices by living this missionary lifestyle, but I don't want to exaggerate them. I'm often gone from my family only for a few months before I see them again. The longest time away was 15 months. My ministry positions have mostly been either 3-4 month assignments or around 18 month assignments. While I know I'm in full-time ministry for the rest of my life, I have had a lot of variety (which I love), I've gotten to live in many different places and experience many different things. This life of missions is my niche and I love it! When I consider people I know who've lived as missionaries in Africa for 20+ years, I was never sure of my own interest in that. To be honest, something that "extreme" would require giving up A LOT. Too much? But I've been convicted recently about how I preach surrender, so I better always be willing to do just that, regardless of what it looks like. That night in February 2005 was not the first and only time God would ask me to say "YES" to Him. And I can't expect every package He has for me to look the same on the inside. At some point there may come a day when He calls me to something that is more radical than anything I could have ever imagined. Will I be willing?


There are many details that came to me three weeks ago that I will not share right now. But I am excited to continue this exploration with God and I'm trying to be patient to wait for Him to reveal to me the big picture and what steps I'm supposed to take. The night after that debrief time, I shared with Roland what God had spoken to me. Maybe this is something I can incorporate with my ministry with Baptists 4 Haiti. Maybe it's something separate for the future. Time (and God) will tell. In the meantime, I will continue seeking His will on this and every part of my life. It's an exciting yet semi-scary time. Not scary because I don't trust God... I do. Completely. But anytime you are faced with the realization that your life may change drastically from the life you'd typically imagine, it's an interesting place to be to say the least!


I want to again thank each of you for following along with my journey here in Haiti. I would appreciate your continued prayers as I continue to walk out God's plans for my life. Pray that I will listen and be obedient to say "YES" no matter how and where He may lead!
I apologize for the long pause I've had in my blogging. Aside from an entry I wrote this week about needing sponsors for two young boys, it's been almost a month since I've written. I've been doing most of my contact through Facebook, posting as many photos as I can of the volunteers teams and what they've been up to. This is our last week of volunteer teams for a while. Roland is heading back to the States Friday. I'm going to stick around a little while longer, mostly because my brother is coming to Haiti in a little over a week and I want to stay and see him here. If I get another chance, I'll write a longer overview of what some of the teams have been doing this past month. Meanwhile, you can continue to follow along with my Facebook page and my Photo of the Day updates. And for now, I'll post some various photos with captions to give you an idea of some of what we've been up to. Thanks for following along with my journey in Haiti!

FBC Elberton did a VBS up on the mountain at Pastor Julmiste's church. We had 80-150 children and adults each day. It was incredible to see the adults who showed up. They were just as interested in the stories, games, and crafts as the children.
  
This week our crew is from Kingsland, GA. They're going to help start the rebuilding efforts for Pastor Julmiste's church. The same church FBC Elberton did the VBS last week.

Some shots of Pastor Julmiste's church now...


I love watching how two nations serve in unity together to do the Lord's work!

The kids up at the church are just adorable. They hangout, play, and also help us work. They have been a sweet blessing this week!

And we always find reasons to visit the kids at Children of Hope Orphanage


The FBC Elberton crew brought some dolls some of the crafty ladies at their church had made. They were a hit at the orphanage with girls and boys alike!

The Elberton ladies spent some time with the girls at Children of Hope. Here's Kristen carefully giving one of them some bright pink nails. :)

Playing games with the parachute at the orphanage



 This is our neighbor Natalee. She comes and hangs out here a lot. I gave her one of the pillowcases I had left. Isn't she so cute? I asked where she wanted to have her photo taken and she said in front of the moto. :) She and her brother went with us on Sunday to the orphanage. She had never been to one before and didn't know who lives at an orphanage. When I told her on the way there, I could see the shock come to her face as she thought about children who don't have parents. She told me afterwards she made three new friends and wants to go back soon.
Haiti is an impoverished nation. This is not news to you. Throughout my years on the mission field, I've learned more and more about the cycle of poverty that exists in countries such as this. Specifically, I've come to understand the impact education (or the lack thereof) can have on a nation. For a while, I didn't realize the significance of statistics telling me that 759 million adults (around 16% of the world's population) are illiterate. I was more concerned about statistics such as over 1.1 billion people in our world don't have access to clean water or over 14,000 children die each day in developing countries because of hunger-related issues. Those were the kinds of statistics that always gripped my attention. Illiteracy and a lack of education in these same nations didn't stand out to me as the most important issue. Through my experiences and research, I now know that there is a cycle of poverty that very much includes this lack of education problem. I have a great and informative book called "Zealous Love". I recommend it for anyone interested in social justice, especially as it relates to our responsibilities in the world as Christians. On their website they explain the lack of education issue like this:
Education is not just about passing exams, getting good grades, or improving comparative national averages. It is about teaching people to think and equipping them with the tools necessary to improve their quality of life globally, nationally, regionally, and personally. A lack of quality education keeps people entrenched in poverty. Poverty is immensely complex, though. A pupil's education depends on more than just their desire for an education. Factors beyond a child's control--such as nutrition, the teacher's ability, and the teacher to pupil ratio--largely determine the outcome of the child's education. If we want to combat poverty--if we hope to see long-term, sustainable development improving the lives of those in need--then we must note the lack of education in our world.
When I think of the unemployment problem worldwide, I realize now that a lack of education perpetuates unemployment, which consequentially leads to poverty within the families and the inability to provide food, shelter, and other basic needs. A statistic from the World Bank website reports that for every year of schooling someone has, there is a corresponding ten percent increase in that person's wages.

Let's look at Haiti specifically... Over two-thirds of the labor force in Haiti do not have formal jobs and I've heard statistics that range from an 80-98% unemployment rate since the earthquake. What are some statistics concerning education here in this country?
  • 50% of primary school age children are not enrolled in school 
  • Approximately 30% of children attending primary school will not make it to third grade 
  • 60% will abandon school before sixth grade 
  • 98% of Haitian youths do not graduate from high school 
As you can see, this is an overwhelming problem that will not be solved in a day. It may not even change much in my own lifetime, though I pray it does! But here's where you can make a difference...

I know two children who need sponsors to attend school for the very first time this coming school year. Their mother I've already introduced to you as my friend NeNe's cousin Maxolyn. She has three boys, Djoubens, Snaïder, and Jeff. Jeff is still a toddler, but the older two are school age. Maxolyn recently asked me if I thought she could put her children in my friend's orphanage. Her biggest reason for wanting to do that is she knew they would have a chance to get an education there through their sponsorship program. Even at barely 20 years old, I know Maxolyn loves her boys. It is incredible to me how she cares and provides for them with the extremely little she has. But she could use some help, as with so many families here.

Djoubens and Snaïder

Maxolyn and NeNe

Here is the cost breakdown for each child to attend school in Despinos.

School fees = $37.50
Uniform = $50
Shoes = $37.50
Books and supplies = $12.50
TOTAL = $137.50 each for one year

If you would like to sponsor Djoubens or Snaïder ($137.50 each) to go to school starting this September email me at hannahsterling@live.com. And I would love for them to be able to be sponsored for years to come. But we can start with this year. If I get a great response, I can put any extra money aside for next year, and so on. And in a couple years, their younger brother Jeff will be old enough to attend Kindergarten.

This is barely one drop in the huge bucket called Haiti, but this is an opportunity of a lifetime for one family here. Thank you for caring for my friends here and for wanting to be involved in making a difference in Haiti!
Time to play catch up on the last couple of weeks...


Last week we had another Georgia BCM team here. This team's main agenda was construction work. I made and posted a video from their first day at Children of Hope Orphanage. You can watch the video by clicking here. We spent most the week at this orphanage, helping to complete the chicken coop and getting the fish hatchery ready for fish. We also helped weed out the field of banana trees, one of the most labor-intensive tasks. The team enjoyed helping with these projects that will have lasting benefits for these children. I have written before about how much I appreciate and admire Pastor Jean Mark for the work he is doing to care for his kids. He is using all of the resources he has available to use the land in sustainable ways. It's always a blessing knowing that your efforts can impact these kids for years to come. After a couple days, the chicken coop was finished. The chickens will soon be bought. When we stopped by on Wednesday this week, water was going into the fish hatchery. The only thing left is to provide some sort of mesh tarp to help shade the direct sunlight. He's already made a call to purchase 500 fish. And of course we loved seeing the kids each day. The group led them in songs, crafts, and taught and acted out Bible stories. The children could often be found at our side at each of the various projects. They weren't afraid to grab a tool and get to work right beside us. Sometimes we would have to pry the tools out of their hands so they wouldn't overdo it, but as much as I could I let them work. You could see the pride and dignity they had in laboring for themselves and for each other. Obviously Pastor Jean Mark has instilled some great values in each of them already. 


Me and Pastor Jean Mark (don't mind the Georgia shirt... it was given to me. I will always be a TN Vols fan!)


We ended the week with an incredible adventure. About two hours from Leogane is a town called Jacmel. If you google Jacmel you'll see beautiful photos from the Caribbean side of Haiti. Not far from there is a path that takes you to Bassin-Bleu (Blue Basin), a stunning waterfall at the end of a beautiful hike. After finding our way to the trail, which included driving our tap taps through a river, barreling up some rocky hills, and walking the rest of the way when we couldn't go further without 4wd, we hired some guides to take us to the falls. We even had to use a rope to climb down to the main waterfall. From there, you take a quick swim around a rock, and voila!--nature's finest ready for you to behold! You can climb up and jump off a rock beside the waterfall to the beautiful blue water below. They say it's about 80 feet deep. We all had a great time swimming and hanging out there together. 




We said goodbye to the team on Saturday. Since we didn't have another team flying in that day, we took advantage of the extra time and Roland, myself, and three of our guys headed to Muncheez--one of the best restaurants in Haiti for "American food". We ordered a big meat lover's pizza, some french fries, and chicken wings for Williamson--who said he didn't like pizza, though I saw him snag a piece. It was a special treat for me and Roland. We love the Haitian food, but it's always good to have a taste from home!



Later that day I met up with my friend Patty who came to stay at the house for a couple days. She's in Haiti through Global Women and plans to come down once a month or as often as she's able. They have partnered with a Haitian group who needs birthing kits. (You can view a PDF file by clicking here that explains these birthing kits in more detail and how you can help.) She's basically a "mule" for them in bringing down the kits and making new connections throughout Haiti. I first met Patty on my first trip to Haiti last August as a volunteer with Samaritan's Purse. We have kept in touch and she even stayed with me last time she was passing through Tennessee. It was fun catching up with her here and telling her a bit about the ministries we have going on. 




Sunday we went to Pastor Bazil's church. This was the first time I'd been back since the first Baptists 4 Haiti team I hosted in May. It was good to be at his church again. After the service we went to visit his wife who is still suffering from a broken collarbone. On Wednesday she was scheduled to get it re-broken and reset. We prayed with her before we left and we're still waiting to hear the result from the operation.




Monday evening I cooked chicken pasta casserole for the house staff and a couple others. We had a great time. I loved having us all together sharing a meal! They all said they liked it, but I'm sure they wouldn't have admitted otherwise.



On Tuesday Roland, Junior and I went with Pastor Jean Claude to see his church and school on the mountain. We met Pastor Jean Claude through my friend Kalebe who is the director of The Lamb Center Orphanage. Pastor Jean Claude has an orphanage with 110 kids. We've taken a group before to visit with the kids and next week we will have a team going there each afternoon to do Vacation Bible School. Pastor Jean Claude began his ministry "up on the mountain". He told us he's having some big activities for the children in July, one on the mountain and one at his orphanage here in Leogane. He asked if we could help him, but we won't have groups on those particular days. We told him we'd go with him to see his school on the mountain and determine if we can send teams there in the future. We were expecting it to take around 1.5hr but it took 2h15m, unfortunately making it difficult for us logistically to send teams there, as travel time would already take most of the day. But it was great to see where he started and the ministries he still has going there. Sadly, his church collapsed during the earthquake and the concrete school building is still incomplete. For now, the 250 kids meet in a tent area with wind-blown tarps for roofs. It's not windy all the time, but it was the day we were there and I can't imagine their papers standing a chance against the elements. So much we take for granted! Not to mention trying to teach 250 kids all sitting in the same small area, obviously all at very different educational levels. Even though we aren't sure exactly how we can help him because of the distance, we were glad to see the place and the kids and have a better idea what happens there. Maybe in the future we can have a "extreme teams" who would be willing to help rebuild the church and school and camp up there throughout the week. I'd do it! It's so beautiful and so peaceful up there!


One of the mountain roads leading to the school
The school
Standing on the roof of the collapsed church
There were many old graves scattered along the mountain. Some were 50 years old or more.


Wednesday we stopped by Children of Hope Orphanage to check on the kids (and the doggies!). It's not unusual for children to be sick around here and there's one baby in particular we've been keeping our eye on. We took him some baby formula. He's typically crying and I'd say a lot of that is because he's hungry. Pastor Jean Mark does his best to feed the kids, and we've been able to start supplementing that a bit, but even still... children need to eat a lot, and Haitian children tend to eat more than I've seen of American children. I LOVE those kids and I'm enjoying getting to know them more each time I go. The dogs there have also become my pet project (no pun intended). One little puppy especially was inching towards his deathbed without intervention. I'm happy to report that he looks a lot better than when I first saw him, and he comes bounding towards me whenever I come. Before I started nursing him back to help, he'd shy away from me and spend most his days sleeping. He's coming back to life and I'm so thankful. They have six other dogs, 5 of them adults, and one an older puppy. They are all skinny though some are more emaciated than others. I've started bringing them food every visit and they gobble it up. I also help make sure they drink water. I try to teach the kids to help with that as well. All of the dogs already had names except for the little puppy. I asked if I could name him and they said yes. I gave it a day of thought and came up with "Beni", which means to bless or blessed in Creole. I figured that was suitable since God brought us together and I could help provide the blessing of a second chance at life. All of you who know me know how much I love animals. I also spent last week feeding the chickens and the goats as well. When we were weeding, I took different "weeds" to the goats to see if they liked any of them. There was one in particular they loved, so I made sure to set those aside instead of letting them go to the trash pile. Some of the kids helped me take them around to the goats.


Me and Audrich
Before
 After
Me and Beni

On Thursday I took Roland and the guys to the Samaritan's Purse compound for them to see and meet my friend Nina. We also were invited by Kalebe to a playground dedication at the Greta Academy (The Lamb Center) building site. Kids Around the World came down for a week through SP and built an incredible playground for the 70+ kids at Kalebe's orphanage. It was a privilege to be there for the joyous occasion. The kids were so thrilled and it was exciting to watch them as they ran and played all over that thing! We talked with one of the main guys from KATW about possibly building a playground at Children of Hope Orphanage next summer. What a blessing that would be! So we will keep in touch with him and I will keep you guys posted with details of how you could be involved in that special project. We also met a couple who have helped create Orbie for Orphans, a discipleship program developed for orphans and foster children. We are excited to check out what they offer and see if it's something we can start using at the orphanages we're involved in.



Yesterday I invited one of our drivers, Lesly, and his daughter, Julie, over to the house. Several of our staff have children and I'd love to meet them all! Julie and I colored for a while, I gave her a pillow case dress and a few other gifts. She is a precious and affectionate little girl. I hope in the weeks to come I can meet more of the staff's families!



So that's the past couple of weeks in a nutshell. I also had my first motorcycle lesson (scary!), taught Roland his first Creole lesson, and we've had all kinds of critters around trying to cause a scene... bats, mice, and tarantulas! But I'm still loving the ministry here. I love our staff and I'm so blessed to call them friends. I pray that more groups catch the vision of Baptists 4 Haiti so that we can have groups here every week of the year! Without teams, we will have to close the doors, so please pray that more teams will sign up for the fall and we can keep everything going strong. There is so much to be done! We have 26 churches that we're trying to help, 16 of them have been assisted in some way, 10 have yet to receive any assistance, and 23 of them still need their church building completed. Will you consider giving to or serving with Baptists 4 Haiti? I'd love to see you down here and introduce you to my Haitian friends--now family! :)
Those of you who are my friends on Facebook know that I post a Photo of the Day to highlight my Haiti happenings. I wanted to take a moment for the rest of you and catch you up on some of my favorites or most notable ones...

Day 12
 

I finally got my reunion with Fibi!! I brought her and Gracie some snacks. Fibi is skinny and tall but the same ole Fibi. :) Today is a GREAT day!


Day 18

At the beach with Diddi and her kids from Mission Haiti Helping Kids. Its a beautiful day here in Haiti and we are blessed to spend the day having church here and playing in the water!

Day 28The Georgia BCM team is running a mobile clinic up on the mountain at Pastor Pilage's church. The climb was as intense as ever and we had a lot of supplies to carry up, but the team did great, excited for the day ahead. Here's a photo of Gabby serving at the triage station. We could easily see 100 patients today. Pray for wisdom and strength for all God wants us to do today.



Day 32


We worshiped with Pastor Abraham's church this morning. Pastor Abraham is an incredible man of God. We were blessed to sit under the mango tree and listen to God's Word being preached through Pastor Abraham and interpreted by Emmanuel.
 
 


Day 35Day 2 of Sherwood Baptist's "eye clinic". I made up some eye tests to determine which reading glasses each person needed. It was incredible to see someone light up when they put on the reading glasses and were so excited to be able to see everything on that piece of paper. Most people wanted glasses in order to be able to read their Bible. What a special gift these glasses are providing! Two of our Haitian staff, Lesly and Ti Chauffeur are my personal assistants this week. :)

Day 39The Georgia BCM team spent the day at Children of Hope Orphanage. There is a lot of work to be done on the property, including finishing their chicken coop. Pastor Jean Marc hopes to have 300 egg-laying chickens in there soon!


Day 43We spent the day trekking over the beautiful mountains to Jacmel. We headed for Bassin Bleu, a spot famous in the Caribbean for its beautiful waterfalls and springs. It was quite a hike to get to the waterfall, then you have to swim around a rock to get there, but WOW! What more can I say?! It was a wonderful way to end a productive week!  

Our second Georgia BCM team this month had a great day today at Children of Hope Orphanage. They worked on finishing the chicken coop. Tomorrow we'll be doing clean-up and helping weed out one of the many gardens the pastor has planted to provide sustainable resources for his kids. Check out this video I put together from today.


Our final ministry site with Sherwood Baptist this week was at an orphanage. We have recently been connected with a nearby orphanage called Children of Hope. Pastor Jean Marc runs this orphanage and has 26 kids. 15 of them are “true orphans” who have lost their mother and father. Pastor Jean Marc originally came to this area from another town for a church planting assignment during seminary. When his leaders told him it was time to move on, he felt God call him to continue with his ministry here and to care for the many orphans he had encountered. He still has the church and now runs an orphanage and a school. The school is open to children in the neighborhood as well. He does not charge the families to put their kids in his school except for exams, in which he has to purchase the materials for the exams. His orphanage operates by faith. It is incredible to see all the ways God has already provided, but there are still many needs there. And I think the biggest way I can see that God has provided is through Pastor Jean Marc himself and his heart for the children. He is a very resourceful man and uses every inch of the land and every bit of his resources to help the kids. He’s planted gardens, he has cows and goats, they have a chicken coop (and is building a bigger one), and they’re trying to build a concrete pool for fish. It is so encouraging to see a man of God, doing everything in his power, relying on God for the rest, and not standing around waiting for a handout. Those are the people I especially want to help because I believe the work will be multiplied even more because of the faith and determination they are already demonstrating.

On Wednesday our group stopped by for about an hour, introduced themselves and played with the kids, including a pick-up game of soccer which the guys (the Americans and our Haitian staff) especially enjoyed. When we started heading back to the house they were all asking if we would come back the next day. We had an eye clinic planned all day Thursday, but today (Friday = typically our beach day) the group willingly spent most of it back at the orphanage. They taught the kids songs, played games, let them braid their hair, and of course played more soccer! It has been such a blessing getting to know Pastor Jean Marc and his kids. He seems willing to sacrifice everything in order to care for them. His own words: “If I lose everything myself, I don’t care. I want to help the children.” It was wonderful getting to see one of our groups come in and interact with the kids and encourage the pastor. I look forward to more groups getting involved in the future and seeing how God leads us in our ministry there.











They have a lot of dogs at their orphanage. The pastor said they are good for protection and man's best friend. I would have to agree... though Roland may think differently! Ha! Unfortunately all are very skinny and about half of them are truly skin and bones. This little puppy will probably die soon without extra attention. Since I recently met some other poor puppies in sad shape and soon after heard of at least one dying, I'm determined to put forth my best effort to save this little one and help the others. I took some scraps today and purchased a big bag (unfortunately expensive) of Puppy Chow to take this weekend. Hopefully I can count on them to put their efforts into feeding the worst off ones and this puppy will have a fighting chance.
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